My OCD

whats OCD ?

Below stated are some definitions for OCD....

i) Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is a disorder characterized by the presence of obsessions and compulsions.Obsessions are repetitive, unwanted thoughts.


ii) An anxiety disorder in which a person has an unreasonable thought, fear, or worry that he/she tries to manage through a ritualized activity to reduce the anxiety.

iii) Frequently occurring disturbing thoughts or images are called obsessions, and the rituals performed to try to prevent or dispel them are called compulsions.

.... and there are so many definitions available in internet where I can get the complete details of OCD.

But the pathetic scene is that these things were not known to me at the age of 14 when I became a victim of this OCD. I used to touch the objects three times which is near to me or which I hold at that point of time. The object may be anything like, cap, glass, chalk piece, pen, notebook, foot steps ( touched three times by my foot ), shoes, car, cycle, wall ,
bag.. and what not.


Quite a many times I used to get totally disgusted and sickened by this activity of mine.

Why Should I be vulnerable to OCD ?
Would I be susceptible to any major disaster or mishaps due to this OCD ?
What would others think of me if this continues in my life ?
Why cant I be normal as others without this OCD ?

...My conscience raised thousands of question and suffered without answers..

These thoughts were considered crucial initially... later on the habit has become a domestic chore like combing, shaving etc
Now I m least bothered about this OCD.. Nevertheless trying to get rid of it...

Okay whats reason behind this...

This OCD started from my adhulthood when I was put in hostel at my 9th standard.
Due to immense love towards my parents I wanted to see and be with them all the time.
Since I stayed 100 miles away from my home I pray for them all the time all the day.

I pray for them whenever I cross a temple or idol of God at the street ends.
But sometimes if I think of my parents and find no temples around or to my reachable view
I used to touch some object presuming God exists everywhere and in all things.

Gradually this prayer turned to be an abnormal habit which ended up in touching anything which I have at that moment or which is nearby for 3 times with a false conviction that it would save my parents who are away from my vision. Day by day it aggravated , Initially I had a count of things I touch 3 times but later it went countless.. The member count whom I pray for, also has got increased from 2 ( parents ) to 4 ( brother and sister ) and now its 5 ( including my wife ) and now all the things I handle is touched 3 times by me..

Also If I want to get some work done without hurdles.. I use to follow the same way of touching any object 3 times. I had a belief that If I touch the object 3 times then the task would get completed without hassles...

Its totally ludicrous .. I do accept., but then I continue....

Though grown up , settled in a good job, staying with my parents and married too…
the intensity of this habit has never come down..instead increased…
The only solace I have about this OCD is, its not easily noticable by others , but then this troubles my dears and nears...
Hope one day or other I might get rid of this OCD….

Wannu know much about OCD then get into
http://www.ocfoundation.org/ocf1010a.htm or
just google "Whats OCD".....

And quite a many persons suffer OCD and guy named 'Brad' has dedicated his entire blog to his OCD... Check out..
http://ocdbybrad.blogspot.com





Will scribble more...........